~ Clueless ~~ Confused ~

Summer~

2008-06-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

I am home. =D

Summer is hot and humid as usual. I'm actually sweating, which is a miracle. Not feeling too good. May be flu, may be allergy, i don't know. But, i'm dealing with running nose, teary eyes, and now, dry skin on the face. Probably due to the symptoms. So...we'll see. Maybe one of these days i'll Finally go see a doctor.

Just came back from KL, the 2nd weekend in a row. Went shopping, bought nice clothes, etc. ^_^ I'm still me.

Anyone who's reading this, and is currently free at home: contact me! =D

Math kills.

2008-04-17T13:47:00.002+08:00

I'm not worried about road accidents anymore, since Math will probably kill me earlier than any car.

Hello peeps! I'm alive, for now. And i feel really amazed that i'm writing this when i have a mid-term in 2 days. But hey, i'm in college, so it's perfectly acceptable, right?

Anyhow, as i'm trudging along my spring term, last term of being a 'freshie', hope u guys are doing great, and having a good time. ^.^

~Much Luv~

10 days

2008-04-04T13:14:00.002+08:00

It's been a full 10 days since my 10-day trip to Barcelona. I'm moving on; life's pushing me on. My day consists of classes, lunch break, one more class, choir 3 times a week, and work 4 times a week. My nights are filled with endless calculus homework that keeps piling up even though i finish the homework assign immediately without procrastinating; i can't afford to.

Other than that, i'm feeling great, having fun, being myself. To the people who are still reading my blog, i sincerely apologize for my inconsistency, and no, i have not forgotten about this blog of mine. Thanks for taking time to visit me blog.

Hope you guys are doing great! ^.^

Coughs

2008-02-29T13:15:00.002+08:00

*Crawls into the room. Kneels on the floor, head bent over folded hands, tears streaming down my cheeks and drips onto the floor, body trembling all over.*

Er heh... ^.^"

DON'T KILL ME!!!!!!!!

I'm...still alive! =D Hehe... >< Been busy ma... okok good news.

I'm coming back in JUNE!!!!!!!!! ^.^ Hope u guys are there when i come back.

This term has been pretty hectic, but i have a feeling next term is going to be worse... I'll be taking Physics(Electricity), Calculus 3, and Macroeconomics. Fun. -.- But anyway, i...Hope...HOPE...i'll be able to update more this coming weeks.

Oo....Spring break is in about 3 weeks...BARCELONA HERE I COME!!!!! ^_^

Please don't hit me when u see me! ><

*Hugs* Miss u guys! Take care. i Will update, Soon. Trust me. =D

Not likely, i know. But, there's also hope, neh?

*Pleading eyes*

Poor me... T.T [Part 2]

2007-12-13T03:10:00.000+08:00

*coughs*....

Er-hem... the last post was an accident... >.< I pressed enter without typing anything, and so... ^^'

Poor me...because everyone's scolding me for not updating my blog...i have reasons for that!!!!

Ok firstly...i was...studying. =) Then i had finals. =D Then....it was my break! ^_^

Fine...maybe i should update it more often...i WILL!!!! trust me. ^^" Hehe..

Anyhow, my break up 'till now has been Great. Despite the fact that i'm broke now, i had a good time walking around, seeing snow, getting on trains and subways, getting a cab in Chicago (with much trouble coz it was raining), went ice-skating at Millenium Park, and is currently staying in Chicago before flying to my sister's place this Friday.

Let's see...wat else? Oh...i've only been sick once, which was the week before last. But, i'm fine now.

The saddest part of my break: I got a B+ for my preceptorial course. T.T

But all in all, it's good. =) And i guess u guys would be relieve to know that i'm alive and kicking.

Miss u guys!!!

*Hugs*

Poor me... T.T

2007-12-09T10:05:00.001+08:00

Birthday~~~

2007-10-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

This weekend has been great. Went to a concert, attended an acrobat performance by acrobats from China (only $5) =). Best of all....

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!

^_^

Thanks everyone who wished me a Happy Birthday. I had a lot of work yes, but oh well, it's me Birthday. Plus, there's no class tomorrow. It's call Fall Institute day, where they hold workshops of various topics for students to attend. I might be going to...say 2? XD

The weather's getting cold-ish. Dropping down to 50+ F, which is about 12 C. Yea, jackets and coat ON! I have to walk across the campus every Monday, Wednesday and Friday morning. T.T

Wanna hear worse news?

I Might be walking across the entire campus on every Monday, Wednesday, Thursday AND Friday starting January...DURING WINTER WHEN IT'S -F!!!!!!! T.T Why oh WHY did I choose courses where the classrooms are so far away, so early in the morning and have 4 classes per week instead of 3?!

Haih....Oh well, it's life. =D

Sh*t.....

2007-09-29T05:02:00.000+08:00

Ok... It's been some time...blah-blah-blah....

Highlights:

- Had 2 exams and a paper due last week.
- Last week was hell [i say that every week don't i? =/]
- Felt very pleased with myself that i finished a 3-page paper in 2.5 hours while they were watching Ugly Betty and Grey's Anatomy
- Managed to finish my physics lab report last night (and not today) which was due today at 4pm.
- Even managed to flip through a few pages of physics for my exam this morning.
- Despite my efforts, i think i screwed up my exam. Damn it!
- Scared the sh*t outta myself during my math exam on wednesday.
[I used my MacBook for math exam. It automatically signed me in on Skype, and my mum called. ****! I hung up of course. But still, i was freaked out.]
- Missed ballroom dancing Again yesterday night [due to all the 'dead'lines]
- Planning not to miss badminton tonight. =)
- Temperature's dropping slightly. [Finally! Thank god. =D]
- Woke up late today [i slept at 1.30. perfectly excusable]
- Woke up before class thanks to my suitemate knocking on my door. I owe you Alex, if you're reading this. =)

I guess that's about it. Take care everyone! 'Till next time~

*hugs*

Finally...

2007-09-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

Now I can update more often...on my spanking BRAND-NEW MacBook. =D

It's White, it's Beautiful, and it's taking up half of the limited space of my desk. But i don't mind. XD And, it comes with a HP scanner/printer/copier, which is also on my desk... this one was bigger than i expected. Not to mention a pretty silver nano engraved with my name. ^_^

So far, classes are fun(except physics), but work is hell. I'd seriously prefer Pn Chin to him... his voice is monotonous. At least Pn Chin will make me pay attention. FP is fun to discuss, not fun to write and read. Calculus is fine, but using Mathematica, a specific math program, is hell. Serious hell. Haven't got it installed in me laptop yet, but will soon.

So guys, appreciate the fact that i'm missing a frat party so u guys can know about my updates. Yes, feel loved. I'm being un-cool because of u guys... XD

*Hugs*

Take care guys. Hope those who had trials did Great. ^_^

Oo....

2007-09-09T22:50:00.000+08:00

By the way guys... I made it in the choir. =D Guys who are in choir now, remember and learn Everything Hooi Lay teaches. ^_^ I owe her big time.

Just an interesting fact: I'm covered in scratches and bruises. Seriously. Every time I open doors to enter buildings, I bruise myself. I push with all my might, the door swings open just enough for me and my bagpack to go through. And it swings back, always before I manage to get myself through. Great isn't it? Usually, it hits my hands, and legs. And now, i have a cut on my wrist and when i put a plaster over it, people ask,"What did you do to yourself?!"

Lol. Not funny. >.< And my parents laughed when they heard this.

Updates! ...Finally...

2007-09-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

Dear all,

Finally, time to sit down and write my blog. I don't have much time because the homework load here is UNBELIEVABLE. Yea, they step in the class, introduce themselves, teach us where to get out homework online and say," By the way, your first piece of homework is due Tuesday morning at 9am."He did not even started teaching yet! What kind of physics professor is he?!

LOL....vending my frustration, i guess? They college's great, weather's good. There's like a town 5 minutes walk away from campus. And I managed to get all my classes in periods 1, 2 and 3, so basically, I'm done for the day at 11.50am. =D I've joined the badminton club (Nurul: XD I do miss the sessions, but at least I'll try to play here), ballroom dancing (Don't laugh, people.) and a few more. I'm taking physics, calculus, and preceptorial, kind of like an english class, compulsary for all freshman.

Gosh...I have a homework dateline coming, and here I am, faithfully updating my blog for you guys... Cry people, cry.

Well, gotta get back to me math. Will online more once I get meself a laptop. =)

Miss you guys loads~~~~~ T.T

Much Luv,
~Ruby~

Transit at Changi

2007-08-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

I'm bored. I arrived at Changi about an hour and a half ago. The internet session only lasts 15 minutes, so i can't play my game. ><

So, lucky you guys, i decided to write my blog, since the keyboard is so nice and springy. =D

Lynnie, jeeng and yeng came to the airport. Thnx guys. *hugs* Really appreciate it. Thnx too to those who want to but couldn't make it. It's perfectly all right. =) I somehow thought that i might cry at the departure hall, but i didn't. After i waved the last goodbye to them when i got past the screening, i felt tears forming. No, they didn't come out. =)

So now, here i am, 'stranded' in Changi. 6 hours to go...doing...nothing? It's actually quite amazing. They have flights to everywhere at 'everytime'. No wonder the whole airport still have a substantial amount of people, even though it's 12++ am.

My session's about up. Guess i'll end this blog here. If Narita has free internet, i Might write. Might. =D

Everyone take care! And lynnie, i think i'll definitely have more than 2 updates in 6 months. This being the first one. XD

3 days.....

2007-08-25T00:14:00.000+08:00

Should i make a countdown?

... Nah...

too much trouble.

Hello again peeps. Yes, I'm still in Penang. Packing, yes. Lazing around, yes. Playing tennis and badminton, yes. Had a party, yes.

Time to watch a movie? Maybe. (Hui Sien don't kill me >.< I'm kinda 'grounded' for now... and it takes me ages to beg for permission to go out T.T)

So... I'm great. =D And May, i think i got my spirit back. ^_^

I am Dead ~ Continuation

2007-08-13T15:44:00.000+08:00

So.

So.

I survived, i think. I felt fine on Saturday, no problems at all. Woke up feeling slightly stiff in both my arms and legs, but still movable. So, i went for tennis. 'Lucky' me, he did extra warm-ups, including frog jumps. T.T

Freak!

Came home, limping slightly. Walked around Queensbay with my parents (still limping), and sat all night during a function coz i refused to move.

And today.... i'm dead. I can't bend my knee without pain, literally. T.T

But, i'll live. =)

I am Dead ~ First part

2007-08-10T23:31:00.001+08:00

I am so Dead.

Had Yoga on Thursday, and my legs are currently very tired. Cut my finger yesterday too, on my right hand. *sigh*

And tomorrow.... i'm having a cross-country run in the morning, badminton in the afternoon, and tennis training session on Sunday morning.

Ouch?

Tell me all about it. >.<

......to be continued on Sunday......

....If i survived....

Counting the days...

2007-08-08T17:27:00.000+08:00

Today is the 8th of August. In exactly 20 days' time, i will be on my flight outta this small island. Hurrah?

It struck me today, that i'm actually leaving. After getting my plane ticket this morning, holding it in my hand i thought... i'm really going. LOL. Don't as me why i feel like that...i don't know myself...

And now, i'm flustered.

1. My table is still a mess. (Less of a mess than it was before, but still, a mess.)
2. My luggage is still unpacked. (Though it's stuffed fulled with the stuff that i bought but nvr unpacked.)
3. My list of 'to-bring stuff' is still incomplete.
4. My list of 'to-do things before leaving' is still incomplete.
5. My list of 'to-do things after i arrive' has not even been started yet.
6. My stories are half-written.
7. I'm running out of cash.

In short:
I'm DOOMED.

I think.

Am i that sentimental?

2007-08-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

Around 8.30 pm, i set about cleaning out my desk and its drawers, which my mother told me to do about 2 months ago. It was dusty and dirty. Very. I flipped through piles and piles of papers, notes and exercises, and, without even looking at them, i piled them all on the 'recycle paper' place. Well, a few topics caught my eye, like 'Trigonometry", and "functions"... so i decided to keep the maths, as i might need them there. This was n't hard at all.

Next, i began turning out the drawers one by one. More personal stuff this time. I couldn't bear to throw them away, no matter how old they were. I know i probably won't use them, and maybe not go looking for them again, but i just can't do it. Every item i picked up, brought about another memory, tucked deep inside of my brain, my memory and my heart.

I recovered old birthday presents i received long ago, and remembered painfully the friends i'm about to leave behind. My old friends, classmates, even aquaintances. I found the old souvenirs made by my prefect juniors for my farewell, which brought back memories of us, prefects, basically living together. It tugs at my heart, realizing now how much i actually miss them, and how i will miss them always, not having them beside me, not knowing when we'll all see each other again. I found pictures of my exchange trips, and found myself missing Eema and Marzi, wondering how they're doing. And of Lianne, Shannon, Nicole and the rest of my CA friends, hoping one day soon, i'll see them again.

And so, having thrown nothing away, i now have boxes of 'junk', as my mother calls them. They may be junk, but what they remind me of is definitely not junk, and hence, they shall not be thrown away.

Am i really, that sentimental?

Ouch

2007-08-04T22:40:00.000+08:00

Today was the first time in many days i woke up before 8am...

Why, you may ask... hence i shall tell the story from the very beginning...

Yesterday afternoon, i received an sms from a certain fren, asking if i wanted to have tennis lessons with her. It's 2 hours per session, and 100 for 4 sessions. The first one would be tomorrow (which is today), 8 in the morning. After not much consideration, my parents said yes. I was amazed.

Ok, so i woke up at 7, drank milk, and waited for her to pick me up. We went there, and since neither of use had seen the coach before, we stood there, looking at idiots. We went into the courts, only to find the person is not our coach. >< (slightly embarrassing, yes.)

Our coach finally came, and we started the morning, by running 3 rounds around the 3 tennis courts. T.T We were in the beginners group and felt very old, coz they were kids, literally. After a lot of threats such as "If u Don't lift ur right heel, u're running 50 rounds around the court"...or... "if u dun pull up ur hand, 10 push-ups, one hand, left hand, baby finger"... and a few hours of racquets and sun, the lesson was over. I was VERY hungry.

Now, for badminton... We played around.and i managed to hit 4 people with the shuttlecok. Guys, I'm SO sorry! T.T After that we had ice-cold ais kacang.... AHHHHHHH~~~~~ =)

And i slept for about...3 hours... upon reaching home. ^_^

And i have a feeling, my body will ache all over tomorrow. >.< HELP!

Forgiveness.

2007-08-03T12:40:00.000+08:00

I formally apologize for the 'hate blog' i wrote last night. It was very unlike me, but I won't be deleting it. I was literally furious and fuming.

I'm sorry if I made u guys worried. I'm completely fine now. A bit shaken, probably, but great. =D

And no, I will not forgive that guy. And if I knew any curses, I would use ALL of them on him.

May you rot in hell, whoever you are.

F***K OFF~~~~~~

2007-08-02T23:56:00.000+08:00

STUPID GUY......STUPID STUPID BRAINLESS PERSON.......

I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u. I hate u.

Whoever u are.

...................................................................................................................................................................

Just now, at 8.30 pm, we were watching television in the living room. We heard some sounds from the side door. At first, we thought it was another stray cat trying to come in (we had those before...), but the sound got louder. My mum screamed, trying to frighten off the cat, but instead of a cat, we should a big fat shadow.

We turned on ALL the lights in the house and saw, right in front of our side door, was a pole, with a hook installed on top, lying guilty there. It's owner fled, of course. The police came, and my mum lost her handbag. Yea, her handphone...cards...everything. Gone.

Nobody saw his(their!) face(s), and now i'm freaking mad! MAD, coz he took something of ours. MAD, coz he made my mum worry.

HANDS OFF OUR STUFF, and FEET OFF OUR PROPERTY, U F**KING A**HOLE!!!!!!!!!

U DARE COME OUR HOUSE AGAIN.........

THERE WILL BE HELL TO PAY.

I'M NOT BLOODY JOKING WITH U DUDE, whoever u are.

And for the rest of u (my frens), i'm not scolding at u guys. ^.^ Just ignore it.

Loneliness

2007-08-01T21:22:00.000+08:00

Shadows in the dark

illuminated by the fire.

Echoes of laughter

carried by the wind.

Patterns in the dust

formed on the earth.

Images of the past

reflected in the rivers.

The company of many

will soon become none.

The sounds of comfort

shall fade away slow.

The assuring pats

will be there no more.

The encouraging words

shall be heard no more.

For soon I shall walk

alone in my stride.

Facing ghosts of loneliness

in my day and night.

Hmm...alright maybe i am feeling a lil' down...and it doesn't rhyme..again...
Seriously...i think i should give up poetry...

Well...

2007-08-01T21:14:00.000+08:00

it's been some time since i've updated my blog... like really update it..

For u guys out there, i'm fine. I'm still in Penang, amongst the comfort of my room, my house, my computer, my car, my handphone and of course, my friends. Not all of them, but most of them.

I am currently toiling away, squeezing stories for 4-year-old kids, while spending time chatting with people online. I've met my future college-mates, and theyy are wonderful people. Really. =D I'm looking forward to September more than ever.

And yet, as each day goes past... a feel a slight tug in my heart as I wake up in the morning. No, I don't have a heart disease; yes, i'm perfectly fine (except maybe i'm coming down with flu). It's saddening, knowing that every day past is a day closer to the parting of ways. Our ways. We're spliting off, flying in different directions at different times, hell we even come back on diffferent seasons even. When will All of us be able to sit down and just laugh together?

Thank god for internet. Guys, Please. Add me on MSN, or prefably Skype. And also Facebook. Please. And if you guys are free, I heard there are plenty great movies coming up this month...I think...*clears throats*

*hints*

You get what I mean, right?? ^_^

Report: KL Trip with the Sixers - Last Day

2007-07-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

We went to visit the, so-called, 'Dripping' Parliament. It was ok...the queue for the toilet was really long XD (strangely, everyone had a full bladder upron arrival to the parliament...nervousness?)

At first glance, the whole hall was...empty. There were like 10 people representing the govrnment from various departments. But the seats for the secretaries were filled up. Guess we know who's doing their jobs...

Nothing much..we went to both Dewan Rakyat and Dewan Negara. Then we had lunch, and went to the Royal Mint. Now, This place i like. It was interesting to see the newly printed coins spurting out from the machines. We dipped our hands to feel, but of course did not managed to take anything out with us.(dang it! >.<)

Anyhow, we went home after that. So concludes the crazy trip for sixers.

~The End~

At long last, i finished this piece. Yea, i'm losing my patience. So sue me. XD

Report: KL Trip with the Sixers - Day 2

2007-07-08T22:02:00.000+08:00

Okok...i know it was WAY long time ago since i wrote about the first one..but hey... i was busy...*looks around* well, i was. anyhow, here's the next episode:

Early that day, we woke up early. There was NO morning call [what a good thing we didn't trust the morning call to wake us up! -.-']. After a buffet breakfast, we all rushed to KLCC, half-asleep.

We reached Petrosains very early. Too early. in fact. It took them another 45 minutes before opening. So, we lounged about, taking pictures, talking, laughing, rushing off to the loo...basically just keeping awake. =) AND THEN....

A troop of school kids [primary school ones] stroll by and queued next to our double lines. When the doors were opened, the authorities invited the children to go in first. I mean, WHAT THE HECK?????!!!!!!!!!!! We were there like 30 minuted before the kids. I know we're older and all that, but SO??????!!!!!!!!!! Too much is too much. And when our organizers strolled up to ask them about it, they said, "We know what we're doing. Let us handle it." MY FOOT!!!!!!!!

*Please, pardon my language.*

Anyhow, soon, there came another group of primary students. All of us were EYEING the person-in-charge [meaningfully of course!] , and he let us in. HMPH!!!!! Anyhow, there was this cool boat ride to go into the exhibitions themselves. 6 to a boat, but we begged to have 8 in our boat. As usual, we got what we wanted. =D

We had fun tinkering with the stuff. Lots of fun, lots of laughter. Don't expect me to name all the stuff that we played [just go there urself XD]. Anyhow, we came out quite late, STARVING. Due to the 'cheap' prices of the cafes, we decided to hop ourselves to an A & W restaurant at the ground floor [We only knew it was AT the ground floor AFTER we decided to go there.We ran, literally]. Due to that, I think we costed JY and PM and Ivy and SL's time to explore Kinokuniya. T.T Sorry guys...

After that, we went up to the Skybridge. More waiting before we were finally ushered up 41 floors, and shooed down literally after like 5 minutes. =.= yea, a bit short of time...sad...

Hmm...after that where did we go? Oh...we went to the Aquaria. Walked there to be precise, in 2 striaght lines, just like primary school kids. XD Saw lots of animals: some cute, some not so cute. Bought some even cuter stuff at the shop, then headed of to Times Square.

Well, we didn't really wanted to go, but majority rules, so... Anyway, we didn't managed to walk around that much..so i guess nothing much...

That night, was the FUNNEST night of the entire trip. LOL. You wouldn't even BELIEVE the jokes that came out of our mouths [especially JY XD] CL was laughing 3 times after every 2 sentences she said, which got us all cracking up. Then, SY and PM came over to join the fun. I swear, it was a MIRACLE the people from next door didn't come to knock our door and ask us to shut up. XD

Hahahahahahahahahahah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Stay tune for the next episode: Report: KL Trip with the Sixers - Last Day

Report: KL trip with the Sixers

2007-06-28T10:47:00.000+08:00

Ahahaha...cute title eh? ^^

...-.-'....

Fine, fine. A detailed report on what happened, when 2 busloads of sixers go off on a trip.

Day 1: Saturday ~ 23rd June 2007
We started out from Pesta around 4.30-ish...Most of us slept during the the journey(I know I did) Anyhow, we stopped, Twice, for breakfast(I personally think twice is a bit too much, considering you only eat breakfast once a day...-.-'). Arrived at KL around 11, and went straight to the Planatorium.

Inside, it was NUTS. NUTS i tell u. We(introducing the we: Yee Teng, Chin Ling, Jingyi, Szee Yinn, Ivy, Sue Lyn, Pui Mun and me) took crazy pictures(including CL and YT holding up the world with a finger...-.-'...and 3 of them beating up a poor statue...dunno who he is..maybe it's Galileo...-.-"). Anyhow, there's this VERY nice room, where they slanted the room, and fixed the gravity so it's different. SO MUCH FUN!!!!! Even the teachers had fun(well sorta, they were afraid to ride the slide down coz it looks steep, but it's not actually. We also threaten to push Miss Ng down the slide which she promptly screamed "NO!!!!!!DON'T PUSH ME!!!!!" XD good times. =D). They even let us watch a movie or some-kind, about the hman body. It was ok, i guess, but kinda gross. ~.~ But the seats were really cool. ^^ More crazy pictures here.

After a LONG LONG flight of stairs down to our bus, we headed to our hotel: Maluri Inn, in Cheras. We checked in, had problem opening the door(oh btw...I shared a room with CL, YT and JY...and they KINDLY made me the room leader...-.-'...thnx a lot guys...and they laughed at my feeble attempts to opne the door...><). Finally got the door to open, we dumped our bags, and headed out for lunch. Walked down the street once, and came back for some mee soup. Me, Cl and PM ordered tomyam, and PM complained it was too hot. Her face and lips went red, and she took a very disgusting picture.(LOL i dun have it, ask it from YT XD) Well, so much for lunch. We walked back to the hotel, and took turns taking the shower.

We then went to One Utama for about 4 hours. JY bought a very nice manga book.(VERY pretty pictures!) We had Pizza, and walked around, not really buying anything.

Next on the agenda: Eye on Malaysia.

AHHHHHHHH~~~ you would say. Frankly speaking, I thought it wasn't that fascinating. We queued, coz there was a long line. Then, the 'tou you' figured out we didn't have to queue(coz we booked very early), so we went to a shorter line. 8 in a gondola, so ngam ngam for us. =D we took pictures of the Twin Towers, but couldn't get it right, coz our hands were shaking(or maybe the gondola was...-.-') anyhow, we had lots of laugh in the gondola, even managed to changed places without shaking the gondola too much. Anyhow, we went for about 4 rounds, then came down. Nothing much, really. We bought souvenirs, then went home. Took our showers and slept.

Oh...forgot to mention...we even used cards to 'foresee' YT's COMPLICATED love life XD ahahaha....dunno how true it is tho...=/

Stay tuned for the next episode: Report: KL trip with sixers-Day 2

Guys, if i missed anything, pls comment and add. XD

Memory

2007-06-16T16:41:00.001+08:00

Playmates,
Were what they called us
Best friends,
To be precise.

Her hair dancing in the wind,
Her back towards me.

Beautiful day, isn’t it?
Golden yellow sun
Bobbing white clouds
Playing amongst the blue, blue sky.

The fields were green and golden
Just in time for harvest season.

We chased around
Just like the good old times.
Laughter filled the air
Birds sang in chorus.

I tried to outrun her
But she was faster.

She continued running
Long after I shouted for her to stop
She disappeared into the mists
Leaving me, a lost lonely soul.

Yet, there is a glow deep in my heart
Because of a memory, from the past.

Hmm... poetry..something i never tried, and something i doubt i will do again...XD Still, u guys can laugh all u want over this, i won't mind. =D Dunno what possessed me to write this..but since it's out, might as well post it. Go ahead. Laugh.

Settled. Or is it?

2007-06-12T21:09:00.000+08:00

I handed in my letter today. The letter that states that I will not be going back to school starting from the 26th of June 2007. Guess I'm all settled.

Yet somehow, I don't feel at ease right now. I feel lost... like...like I have too much time on my hands. For as long as I could remember, my weekdays were filled with homework, and game times(whenever possible after homework); my weekends and holidays with fun and nothing but fun(to celebrate before the studying kicks in again after the semester starts)

And now, as my classmates are studying their asses off for The Major exam, what am I doing? I don't really blend in, seems to be too much time for gaming(amazingly, I get kinda bored with it sometimes), Tv's boring sometimes, and of course, my reading. But after sitting 3 ohurs on the couch, I would say to myself, "Ok. Finished this book. What else?"

I guess I need to find my life back. Maybe I should get a part time job or something, after I stop school of course. Or maybe, I should just go back and start hitting my textbooks. But I really don't feel like doing that...~.~ having trying to escape the fate of studying for the past 5 years, I guess I can't really accept the fact that now I rather study than have nothing to do, after finally having the 'official permission' to Not study.

I'm lost. Someone find me please.

Happy happy day...

2007-06-01T10:11:00.000+08:00

...indeed. ^.^ Everything's settled. Now, i just have to:

1. Stop schooling
2. Buy stuff
3. Pack
4. Book my flight
5. Meet up with all my friends. =D

Guess I'm actually more relieved than happy. I CANNOT actually PICTURE myself taking stpm. You try it.

Get my point? XD

And now, I shall continue to do whatever's on my list... and by the way guys, I won't be around until the end of the holidays. =D

Have a nice one guys! See you guys soon. I promise.

Phew....

2007-05-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

I'm alive, for now.

Holidays should perk me u for now. During the whole examination period, I was just thinking: something's way wrong. My class was tensed, as usual, and yet, not as tensed as everyone thought we would be. I love my class.

We're a small group, and I think we've grown a lot closer beacuse of that. True, we may not agree over every single thing, but arguing's part of the fun, don't u agree? They're all such wonderful friends, and I'm very grateful to have met them.

No, I will not regret having studied form 6, even if I don't take stpm. Having them as friends is worth it, more than worth it. And if I never entered form 6, we may be aquaintances, but we may not be friends. I am grateful.

I love my class.

My long absence

2007-05-11T22:06:00.000+08:00

can be explained by just one sentence:

i was busy.

Really. Just stuff. don't ask me what i was doing...just a lot of stuff ~.~

and now....

EXAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm FREAKING out!!!I'm FREAKING out!!!I'm FREAKING out!!!I'm FREAKING out!!!

There. I feel MUCH better. ^.^

Wish me luck. Please? =D

"Ladies and gentlemen...

2007-04-21T10:06:00.000+08:00

...Flight CX 0143 is now boarding. Passengers please proceed to Gate C3 for boarding. Flight CX 0143 is now boarding. Passengers please proceed to Gate C3 for boarding. Thank you."

"Here you go miss, your one-way ticket to Hong Kong. Your flight number is CX 0143 , seat number 23D. You might want to hurry a bit, miss. ... Miss...?"

CX 0143... CX 0143... I'm really leaving?

My heart started pounding at the thought of leaving my 'home'.

No...that must be something here that can make me stay...there must be....

I opened my private memory box, and allowed myself to re-enter, and once more, walk down my memory lane. Images flitted through my mind, situations replayed themselves. Old memories, like my dad hiting me when he was drunk(which was nearly every night), my mum crying all the time in the same corner.

Then came the newer ones, like when mum died, and dad left. And i was transfered from orphanage to orphanage, because none of them would keep me. Not because i was naughty or violent; just the opposite: I couldn't blend in with the other children.

Finally, I turned 18, the age of freedom. For the first time in my life, I actually smiled. I left the orphanage, found a small apartment and a job. It was a boring clerk job, but I was content. No, I was happy. Then, my dad appeared in front of my apartment one day, and asked for five thousand dollars. My dad. The dad who gave me to the orphanage, the dad who hasn't visited me in more than 10 years. My dad.

"Trace dear, I wrote your name as my guarantor, so if you don't give it to me now, they're gonna come and collect it anyway. I'm just saving 'ye the trouble."

I gave him the money, to settle his gambling debts. He come once every few months, becoming frequent within the last few years, with growing amounts. I couldn't take it anymore. I packed my bags, left a note on my door, and took a cab to the airport.

Will they kill him? Maybe I should stay......

No! He deserves it. It's his debt, not yours. After all this years, he never came for you, and never will. Do you really think he'll came back if you pay his debt for him?

......

"Err...Miss? Your tickets?"

"Oh..I'm sorry. Thank you."

"Enjoy your flight, miss."

"Thank you."

* * * * * *
"Ladies and gentlemen, this is your captain speaking. We are getting ready to fly, so please fasten your seatbelts..."

No turning back now. The decision has been made.

I sank into the cushion seats, and let my tears silently roll down my cheeks. I may not have had the happiest time of my life there, but it was my home, sort of. It has made me who I am today. No, I will not miss him, but I will miss my work, my office, even the trees outside the orphanages.

"Are you all right miss?"

"I'm...fine. I will be."

Hmm... a bit weird? i dunno...the idea just came... but i kinda like the whole idea...maybe next time i'll concentrate more on the internal struggle...that'll be an interesting one...XD

i HATE motocyclists.i Really Do.

2007-04-10T17:32:00.000+08:00

Not all of them, but this one in particular.

There i was, driving along, minding my own business. I signalled to turn, there he was, on my right...so i slowed.

Careful driver i am. Really. Then he slowed. Thinking he was letting me go past first, i turned, slowly. That's when he sped up, and 'BANG'.

He had the nerve to say I didn't signal, and asked me to pay him RM30. THE NERVE!!!!!!! My friends were nearby, and yes, we ALL know he banged into me on purpose. Just for the money.

FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!

No, i didn't pay him 30, i payed him 10. What else can a student like me do? And he F***king asked for 20 after i told him i did'nt have 30.

FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And now, no thnx to him, my parents are not letting me drive, just in case i meet another FREAK like him....

i HATE u. i'm not joking. u better not let me see u again. or else.

Yes, i'm mad. Very mad. Very very mad.

Confused... =s

2007-04-08T14:02:00.000+08:00

Books, papers and small printings
When will this all end?
Is this what life is all about
To stare at pages of pages of stuff?
I don't get what I’m doing
I'm don't understand why.
Education is everything, they say
But what is education about?
Not the knowledge that you know
Not that of you understand,
But those which they think is important
And those which can get you a piece of printed paper.
People look up to those wearing white,
Dark blue ties and coal-black coats.
But do they see those who dress plainly
Living life the way they want it to be?
Rushing around every minute every second
Trying to beat the tickings of Father Time's clock.
Is this what we are intended to do?
Is this the way life should be?
The rule of the jungle
Survivor of the fittest.
What happened to human civilization?
Correction:
What have civilization done to us?

I am but a teenager
With all my fantasies and 'big' ideas
With my thoughts of freedom
With my hope of an ideal life.
Yet, naive as I am
I do understand what is going on
And regretfully, there is nothing I can do to change it...

Good trip.

2007-04-08T11:55:00.000+08:00

The trip to KL was good, the meeting: fruitful. We had a lot of fun travelling via Lrt's, KMT's...in short: trains. They were efficient, quite cheap, plus, u can't get them here in Penang ^^ which makes it twice as enjoyable. Even when it was packed with people, i didn't really mind.

Busy week coming up, with the AFS Roadshow heading to Penang. Looking forward to it...

Haih... a stack of homework left undone... should i leave them as they are?

I doubt. Better start working then. >.<

The wind was harsh.

2007-04-05T22:38:00.000+08:00

Her hair was whipped around her bare shoulders, as she stared motionless at the dark ocean and its calm surface.

Strange, she thought. She expected crashing waves and roaring thunderstorms that would match her feelings, like what she saw in movies.

Nothing ever goes my way... Nothing. Why should this time be different? Maybe calm waves are better. They are prettier to look at, and I'm not half as scared as I thought I would be.

She proof-read the letter in her hand one last time, checking for grammatical errors, not wanting to be laughed or critisized. Finally satisfied, she let her eyes sweep the ocean once more before raising her left hand, holding a short dagger.

They ran towards the beach, knowing it was her favourite hiding spot. The one place she always goes to whenever she felt lonely or sad. Weird that none of them remembered this place until the photograph slipped from her notebook to the floor. Maybe it was her sanctuary after all, and they were not welcome there.

They ran. But it was too late. All that was left was a dagger, a blood-stained letter and a lost soul, seeking a happier place.

Actually, i kinda think this is a beginning of a story...just a random idea... if I'm free, I'll continue with it. My friend David always wanted a sad story...maybe this might finally be my first.

HYPER!!!!! ^.^

2007-04-05T22:35:00.000+08:00

Going down to KL tomorrow, with Julie!! =D so excited...haven't seen so many ppl for months and now, we're finally meeting again... I'm expecting lots of talking, laughing; lots of 'Hi!!!'s and 'OMG!!!'s...

^^ not expecting. i KNOW there'll be.

AND i'm not gonna miss out! XD

My first post ^^

2007-04-05T19:04:00.000+08:00

Welcome to my blog...

Please make yourself comfortable...do sit... cup of tea?

I do hope I can keep THIS blog...

More updates next blog... meantime...

~Cheerio~

^.^"

~~~ Clueless ~~~~~~ Confused ~~~